“My dearest love, I woke up tired today, even more so than yesterday
How that’s possible, I don’t even know, nor do I want to
It’s hard to find the motivation when you are this drained
My body aches but I’m used to feeling this way
Seventeen down, seventeen to go
That’s not so bad, right?
I think of home often and of you even more
Yesterday I saw the sun shining
It appeared for a few minutes just after two
For a moment I found myself smiling
As if those short rays of light were enough to get me by
Maybe that was enough
Thank God, I needed that
I surely needed that”
— Lyrics from Spirit Breaker, written by August Burns Red.
The world can be unpredictable, unstable, and unkind. These events or “storms” are miserable. Once the air settles and the rain lets up, we dry ourselves off and our lives have the potential to be changed. Our lives may become clearer in ways that we may never recognize. Knowing this, I put deliberate effort into acknowledging the potential for this clarity in my life, the indirect good that I am led to by the storm. I convince myself there is hope to be had. The storms in our life will be difficult, but oftentimes the new path that we set out on because of the dark leads to light.
That light is something I’m constantly chasing with my wife. Life together is a deliberate action, it takes dedication, and it doesn’t come easily when storms brew and blow away everything we thought we knew. But through those storms I know that with commitment and dedication, the rain will lead us to growth, and from the growth good may come. There’s sublimity to be had at the end of it all, when we finally get through the storm, and step into the light. Once in the light, we can recognize all of the unique, beautiful, and unforeseen good that has come after the unforeseen bad.